Today was wonderful - I got to talk to Jesse on the phone!!!! Praise God from whom all blessing flow! Girl you are amazing and I am so lucky to know you. SO thinks have been crazy with Carrie gone - it has been a good week though. On Monday well I stayed in my PJs and moped about not being at home. On Tuesday I went to see Spiderman 2 (A HUGE waste of 9.50) with the youth group . Oh so I had to take the bus home with my friend Megan. We get on the wrong bus and have to hike back to the bus stop in the pouring rain - the whole time I kept hearing - If you like Pina Coldas and being caught in the rain- in my head and laughing - Finally we get on the right bus but have to walk in teh rain more - yeah we were soppig wet - it was sooo fun. I love the rain. We went to small group and AJ lent us dry socks and blankets. Small group was really good- we are starting a study on Philippians. Anyway afterwards we start to plan our girls choose what to do night - ok so I kinda took over at this point - it is going be sweet as for real. We are all dressing up - both girls and guys - then the guys are picking us girls up and taking us out for dessert - then they are planning something special afterwards for us. Each girl is paired up with a guy - they are picking names out of a hat. It is goin be sooo much fun! Its gonna be the Friday before I leave. Well we talked and planned till 12:30am! I came home and crashed. On wednesday - ahhh wednesday - I went into the city-by myself! and met with one of my Chinese friends, Sherry. We went and had Indian food - soo good- I love curry! Then we went to walk on a beach - so fun! tehn I went and finalized my lesson for the Japenses boys - ok 15 people showed up! I normally have 5-6 and it was just me! I was a wee bit frazzeled to say the least. I got through it barely and then had to rush to catach the bus home - I got home and check my email - to find out some bad news about my account. I texted Heather saying I needed a friend and she called - it was so nice to dump on a friend- she is so great! Yeah then I fell asleep at 10 and woke up at 9 the next morning - I slept like a rock! On Thursday I had more gross Chinese - ewghhhh - so gross and went tramping (its what they call hiking) up this mountian with a great sea view - so cool it had all these secret tunnels and big cannons - I felt like a girl james Bond. Then I came home and chilled. Then today i got to talk to Jesse - yeah yeah yeah! so yeah thats been my week- its been good - I have enjoyed it! Tonight I have a youth activity so that will be funa nd tommorrow is aother All Blacks Rugby game - so pumped! So yeah just settleing into life. I guess also trying to figure out how to say goodbye also especially to those that have come to mean so much to me! But also excited that I get to see everyone at home so soon - 22 days till home!

Dodgy - yet another sweet as Kwiwi word.
Happy 4th of July
Well its actually the 5th here - I didn't celebrate at all - My mom didn't even call me - yeah I've been a bit depressed all day. Ok my pitty party is over -
Today I did get to catch up on some sleep - it was awesome to sleep until I woke up - then do everything in my own time and not becasue I had to get somewhere. All day I have just been relaxing - it was so nice to do. Carrie is gone for the week and I'm in charge of making all the appointments with students - so far none of the have answered my texts - I really don't want to screw this up. Its only 26 days till I come home - 26 - how am I going to leave? Everytime I think about it it makes my heart hurt.
Oh so I guess I should tell about what I have bee up to. On Sat I went out with Ruth (AJ's mum) shopping - it was so fun - I like her a lot - she even brought me a pair of earings - so pretty. Then I had a going away party for one of my students - it was great. Then finally I had some friends over and watched a movie - we watched steel magnolias and Wayne's world - I love those movies - they remind me of home and friends. Then on Sunday I went to church - it was an outreach service - they had a guest choir. It was a polynesion gospel choir - like our Black gospel choir - so yeah my new dream in like is to be a polynesian gospel singer - ohh to be ethnic. Yeah then I taught English - it went so well - I taught them family names - like mother, father, sister, cousin - and all those other names - they understood it - I taught - it was so exciting! Then I met with a girl who needed someone to talk to - it went really well. Then I had youth - then a youth leaders party - so yeah I was tired when I got home - it was so nice to sleep that long - its like my body is totally saying take it easy you're doing too much - it was nice to listen to it for a change. Other than that AJ asked me to do the communion meditation again in a few weeks - I'm going bake real bread for it - so excited. well I think I am going to sleep more.

Choice - thats aother one of my favorite NZ sayings - something can be choice - I really enjoy that one. Well I tend to write when something bad has happened ..nothing bad has happened at all - I have just been figurig out a lot lately - I am so embarressed about the whole guy thing - I mean I should have never let anything go this far - I am changing that starting today - I just can't be spending all this alone time with him - its not right. I know what I have to do- I just don't want to thats all - But I must. Ahhh...well anyway last night I went bowling - yeah I sucked- but I went with 2 girls from youth and aother leader Belinda - it was so much fun - they are so clued on to God- ahh its amazing to be around that - and belinda is awesome - afterwards we just sat and talked and prayed for 2 hours - it was pretty awesome. Oh Oh I am so excited - when I get home Kelly and I are going to have a "retreat" we are going to her apartment and having a weekend o God - mornig devos - main speakers (so far her and me) and worship - we are thinking about workshops - maybe even some guest speakers. :) I am so excited and ready for this weekend - I want it now - people better make their reservations - seating is limited. No honestly everytime I think about leaving this country it breaks my heart - missions sucks in the aspect that everywhere you go you leave a little pieace of your heart.