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I'm back here in the good old U S of A - just try to tell my heart that this is home and you get a whole other story. Missing NZ right now something Fearce. Its better now that I've rested. Promise to fill in teh gaps later.

Today was wonderful - I got to talk to Jesse on the phone!!!! Praise God from whom all blessing flow! Girl you are amazing and I am so lucky to know you. SO thinks have been crazy with Carrie gone - it has been a good week though. On Monday well I stayed in my PJs and moped about not being at home. On Tuesday I went to see Spiderman 2 (A HUGE waste of 9.50) with the youth group . Oh so I had to take the bus home with my friend Megan. We get on the wrong bus and have to hike back to the bus stop in the pouring rain - the whole time I kept hearing - If you like Pina Coldas and being caught in the rain- in my head and laughing - Finally we get on the right bus but have to walk in teh rain more - yeah we were soppig wet - it was sooo fun. I love the rain. We went to small group and AJ lent us dry socks and blankets. Small group was really good- we are starting a study on Philippians. Anyway afterwards we start to plan our girls choose what to do night - ok so I kinda took over at this point - it is going be sweet as for real. We are all dressing up - both girls and guys - then the guys are picking us girls up and taking us out for dessert - then they are planning something special afterwards for us. Each girl is paired up with a guy - they are picking names out of a hat. It is goin be sooo much fun! Its gonna be the Friday before I leave. Well we talked and planned till 12:30am! I came home and crashed. On wednesday - ahhh wednesday - I went into the city-by myself! and met with one of my Chinese friends, Sherry. We went and had Indian food - soo good- I love curry! Then we went to walk on a beach - so fun! tehn I went and finalized my lesson for the Japenses boys - ok 15 people showed up! I normally have 5-6 and it was just me! I was a wee bit frazzeled to say the least. I got through it barely and then had to rush to catach the bus home - I got home and check my email - to find out some bad news about my account. I texted Heather saying I needed a friend and she called - it was so nice to dump on a friend- she is so great! Yeah then I fell asleep at 10 and woke up at 9 the next morning - I slept like a rock! On Thursday I had more gross Chinese - ewghhhh - so gross and went tramping (its what they call hiking) up this mountian with a great sea view - so cool it had all these secret tunnels and big cannons - I felt like a girl james Bond. Then I came home and chilled. Then today i got to talk to Jesse - yeah yeah yeah! so yeah thats been my week- its been good - I have enjoyed it! Tonight I have a youth activity so that will be funa nd tommorrow is aother All Blacks Rugby game - so pumped! So yeah just settleing into life. I guess also trying to figure out how to say goodbye also especially to those that have come to mean so much to me! But also excited that I get to see everyone at home so soon - 22 days till home!

Dodgy - yet another sweet as Kwiwi word.
Happy 4th of July
Well its actually the 5th here - I didn't celebrate at all - My mom didn't even call me - yeah I've been a bit depressed all day. Ok my pitty party is over -
Today I did get to catch up on some sleep - it was awesome to sleep until I woke up - then do everything in my own time and not becasue I had to get somewhere. All day I have just been relaxing - it was so nice to do. Carrie is gone for the week and I'm in charge of making all the appointments with students - so far none of the have answered my texts - I really don't want to screw this up. Its only 26 days till I come home - 26 - how am I going to leave? Everytime I think about it it makes my heart hurt.
Oh so I guess I should tell about what I have bee up to. On Sat I went out with Ruth (AJ's mum) shopping - it was so fun - I like her a lot - she even brought me a pair of earings - so pretty. Then I had a going away party for one of my students - it was great. Then finally I had some friends over and watched a movie - we watched steel magnolias and Wayne's world - I love those movies - they remind me of home and friends. Then on Sunday I went to church - it was an outreach service - they had a guest choir. It was a polynesion gospel choir - like our Black gospel choir - so yeah my new dream in like is to be a polynesian gospel singer - ohh to be ethnic. Yeah then I taught English - it went so well - I taught them family names - like mother, father, sister, cousin - and all those other names - they understood it - I taught - it was so exciting! Then I met with a girl who needed someone to talk to - it went really well. Then I had youth - then a youth leaders party - so yeah I was tired when I got home - it was so nice to sleep that long - its like my body is totally saying take it easy you're doing too much - it was nice to listen to it for a change. Other than that AJ asked me to do the communion meditation again in a few weeks - I'm going bake real bread for it - so excited. well I think I am going to sleep more.

Choice - thats aother one of my favorite NZ sayings - something can be choice - I really enjoy that one. Well I tend to write when something bad has happened ..nothing bad has happened at all - I have just been figurig out a lot lately - I am so embarressed about the whole guy thing - I mean I should have never let anything go this far - I am changing that starting today - I just can't be spending all this alone time with him - its not right. I know what I have to do- I just don't want to thats all - But I must. Ahhh...well anyway last night I went bowling - yeah I sucked- but I went with 2 girls from youth and aother leader Belinda - it was so much fun - they are so clued on to God- ahh its amazing to be around that - and belinda is awesome - afterwards we just sat and talked and prayed for 2 hours - it was pretty awesome. Oh Oh I am so excited - when I get home Kelly and I are going to have a "retreat" we are going to her apartment and having a weekend o God - mornig devos - main speakers (so far her and me) and worship - we are thinking about workshops - maybe even some guest speakers. :) I am so excited and ready for this weekend - I want it now - people better make their reservations - seating is limited. No honestly everytime I think about leaving this country it breaks my heart - missions sucks in the aspect that everywhere you go you leave a little pieace of your heart.

Home Group Prefect - that's what I was officially made on Tuesday night - I guess I should back this thing up and chat about the whirlwind that my life has been. Ok, I'll just start with Monday - Well I went shopping with AJ all day - it was so much! He loves Bryan Adams - I love Bryan Adams - yeah it was a total bonding moment - well at least for me. No he bought me Brooke Frasier CD - for real everyone should get this CD - its kick butt awesome. I helped him buy 2 great shirts - this black one is..Well...Yeah...Home...Well...Way too good looking. It was so much fun helping him shop. I also went with him to pick his uncle up at the airport - ahh Uncle O - so cool- we had lunch with him at AJ's house - I went home and crashed for about an hour then Heather called and we chatted for 2 hrs and then it was too late to nap so I got up. I went to bed at 9:30 - yeah I am so coming down with something. Then on Tuesday I did some lesson plans - Carrie came over - ad we had another "chat" never tell me that you want to "chat" with me ever - this trip has forever ruined "chat" in my vocab because I always know that I've screwed something up if you say "chat". Anyway, basically she told me that she was frustrated, upset, and disappointed in me because I wasn't following through with my English lesson planning - she informed me that I was the one responsible for making the lessons and that she had made that clear - well see I understood that I was in charge of the until she was done working at the hub - which ended 2 weeks ago - so I've been frustrated that I have been planning them - or her attuitde about what I have been doing - after all I have been just as busy as her. Uhaghhhhh I am so tired of all this no offensive bullshit - man that felt good to say. I realize I am sucking it up on this internship - stop rubbing my face in it. She complained that my heart wasn't in it - I put it in it. Now she is telling me that my actions aren't in it - ok I have no idea what to teach them or how to do this - isn't learning the whole point of an internship -a hhhhhhh. Ok so I am done whining - I just haven't had anyone to talk to about this. So anyway as soon as she says all this I whip out my work - yeah it was all like bam Corey is on. Well, I went to AJ's early to turn his house into a winter wonderland for our midwinter Christmas party - so much fun. I kicked tail in the trivia portion. SO girls ended up winning 3000 to 1000 - we totally dominated...So afterwards I was talking to AJ and ended up acciently telling him that Carrie is much better at criticing than encouragement - I was being completely honest - It felt so good to be honest - it was like the mask that was suffocating me being removed and I could breathe. I hate being fake more than anything else - I can't stand it. God wants ad has planned for us to be open and transparent and I realize that is one thing I haven't been here - transparent - I miss it. But on the negative side I shouldn't have said anything about Carrie - I hope it wasn't gossip it wasn't my intention at all. Well so today I went into the city with my Chinese students - we ate lunch at this Chinese place - for real I was gagging at one point - I can't do Chinese food for some reason - it makes me sick! I had some great convos with the girls - Teaching the Japanese Boys went well ...I am really not feeling well now - my throat is raw, my head hurts and my tummy is upset - I want to be mothered ...ahh being sick in a foreign country - I want my mum!

FULL-ON. I think thats one of my favorite sayings - for real. I love it and it captures a true depth of meanings. Well anyway its like almost 12:30am and I just got home 30mins ago from iceskating. Yeah uhmm...Monday I am am going write everything dow - I just wanted a say a quick hi - hi. I am going non-stop till monday and even thast turned full-on also. I desperately need guy advice - I have no clue what I am doing in this department - way foreign to me. Till then I'll just be doin what comes natural - daydream and over anyalze -isn't that what girls are supposed to do? Well, Jesse I am amazed by you each time I savor a peanut butter m&M- they for real take me to a better place. Its like a welcome home party in my mouth evertime I eat one - I'm saving the mac and cheese for a really bad day when all I want is home. No for real thank you for all your support and encouragement - what would I do without you. Oh I am so missing Cadmens call - Long Line of Leavers cd right now - My soul is craving it. Oh if you want some sweet as Kwiwi Christian music - Brooke Frasier - for real so good if you can get her do - I'll be bringing her home with me thats for sure - so incredible. well I must fall in to bed - only to get out of it in uhmm 6 hrs - not enough sleep at all for my schedule.